Memories!

I know I have been missing for a few days, actually a couple of weeks. I have been busy with friends and work trying to keep my mind off the two week wait. Well my two week wait came to an end tonight when my cycle started. So needless to say, our last IUI was unsuccessful. I will be calling the clinic in the morning to see what's next with starting IVF. I am so nervous for this process but hopeful it will bring us our miracle.

This week also brings back a sweet memory that changed my life forever! On November 8, 2011, I had my first every positive pregnancy test. The happiness only lasted a couple of weeks and then it was all over when it was found to be a chemical pregnancy. Even though I have nothing more than a "pee" stick to prove they existed, they DID exist!! I think about it every single day of my life. I always try to imagine how my life would be today holding my precious miracle. They would've been 4 months this month and celebrating all the "first" holidays. I have a special setting in our home with an Angel tealight candle holder. The warm glow of the flame warms my heart and reminds me that one day I will hold you! Here is the only evidence I have of the moment that changed my life forever!

What a smile on my husbands face!! He WILL be a wonderful daddy someday! RIP Angel baby! You are loved beyond measure and always in our hearts.....